JOURNEY TO MOTHERHOOD

After my C-Section, the midwives didn’t manage to put Baby Jed into skin-to-skin contact as I am really rough. The whole process of my BIG day was pretty tiring, sore and a nightmare.. So, they had to give baby Jed formula milk. They let me rest for a couple of hours and try it when I’m able to do the breastfeeding.

Baby Jed with his first Bottle

According to Wikipedia, Breastfeeding is the feeding of an infant or young child with breast milk directly from female human breasts (i.e., via lactation) rather than from a baby bottle or other container. Babies have a sucking reflex that enables them to suck and swallow milk. I’ve also learned from reading and watching documentaries that breastfed babies grew up with higher level of IQ than those fed in bottles. But not all newly moms can breastfeed. Count the working moms on these and maybe, ME.

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There’s nothing I could ask for when I’m expecting my bundle of Joy. But I have received a pre-anniversary gift from my Habibi 2 days before our wedding anniversary.

Hmmm… A dozen of Red Roses Again for me

A Kiss

Just proud to receive these pretty flowers like me ( eherm!)

The Flowers….

And The chocolates which I shared to everyone..

Just me posing…

I am really lucky to be married to a wonderful husband. I won’t ask for more. Just stay sweet and loving as he is and I’ll try to be a better wife if not best as much as I could.

The pictures I posted here was taken March 1, 2011. I did gave him a card with a £20 note and an ashtray silver stand gift for his new smoking room but you’ll find out why I didn’t manage to take a picture of it.

BTW, here’s a short message for my Hunny Bunny :

To you Jamie, thank you for being patient on my mood swings. For the love and for always taking care of me. For all the effort and surprises you bought for me for those 3 long years of being together.. You may not be the best husband but you will always be the only man I will love and care FOREVER … I love you hunny bunny..

Our Anniversary Picture before the arrival of our little angel at Bangor Hospital

It was 2:00 am in the morning when Me and habibi decided to sleep that night ( March 2) watching the last end of of Midnight Sun. A bit tired but my huge belly won’t let me settle anyway. After an hour, I’ve decided to go for a loo but something is not right.. The pain I’m feeling wasn’t the normal thing I’m feeling everyday. “ Is this what they call contractions??” I asked myself. Let’s review the meaning of this scary word for most pregnant women who’s nearly due.. REWIND from our Lamaze lessons CONTRACTIONS/LABOUR CONTRACTIONS  is the periodic tightening and relaxing of the uterine muscle, the largest muscle in a woman’s body. Something triggers the pituitary gland to release a hormone called oxytocin that stimulates the uterine tightening. It is often described as a cramping or tightening sensation that starts in the back and moves around to the front in a wave-like manner.

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We have been invited on the Engagement Party of Jamie’s only sister. So off we go though I’m quite unsure about the long journey. I am worrying that I might deliver on that week but we will only stay for 2 nights so let’s just hope Little Jamie won’t appear that day.

I am assigned to do one menu which is the Pork Kebabs or Barbeque while nanay has to do the other menu. My bulging belly is at  41cm and I did around 101 sticks of BBQ. Not to bad ei? Tatay had to cook it though. And Habibi treated me to hair cut.

Here’s my new haircut… Not sure how will stay like that but it was nice being pampered  

Me and my bump … Love this picture

The pork kebabs! Visitors love this recipe

Nanay , the Bride to be , Rachel and me & Bump ..

Me and habibi… really tired in this pic. it was indeed a very long day for a preggy like me to stay up this late but we had a good time at the party. BTW, at least there’s no sign of little Jamie coming out tonight

To John and Rachel, congratulations!

Its getting near.. And I have this anxiety attack that my delivery won’t be what I am expecting. Probably because I am really huge and I felt like its going to be uneasy delivery. Come what may! All I want now is for this to be over and see my little bundle of Joy.

I am full term now.. Any moment I will be delivering little Jamie. Hospital bag packed, Car seat already attached, Nursery room ready and my Ibufropen and Pregnancy ball are also ready on my side in case I needed it for quick ease of pain during contractions. Me and Jamie have already attended 2 lamaze ( breathing class ) lesson to make sure that we will not be both shocked in the delivery. It’s kinda scary after we saw the actual delivery via normal delivery. Jamie thinks its gross. Will he thinks the same on my Delivery? hmmm let’s wait and see.

My 2011 Valentines Celebration is very special. Simple because I feel loved and appreciated by my husband. I’m needy and want some attention specially now that I am nearly due.

Surprise?? Yeah I’ve got surprise from him. Guess what?

A box ?

Yay! A Silver D&G Bracelet Watch.. Lovely!

Flower & Chocolate Delivery.. A Dozen of red roses! It’s been a long time since I received a proper flower arrangement

A Kiss on Valentines Day ..

Chinese Buffet meal courtesy of Nanay & Tatay

Our Valentines day weren’t too bad despite my size.. It’s pretty hard getting ready, wobbling like a duck when we go there but its worth it. We enjoyed our hearts day. Happy Valentines Day Everyone!

At week 35 now and felt like I have bone cracks on my back. ITs really painful and uncomfortable to sit, sleep and walk. Everyday and night is a nightmare. But nothing I can do really. I need more patience and just focus on one thing, that this will end soon and We’ll be able to meet our little one soon.

I had my midwife visit last February 2, and it was a wake up call for both of us ( Jamie & me) that our baby will soon arrive in 2-3 weeks time. She explained us what to do in the upcoming delivery and asked us to support each other on my delivery day.

As we go on in our birth planning, anxiety hits me. I started getting nervous when she explained me about different types of giving birth. From normal to cesaerian. I stick to using epidural without knowing the disadvantages of it. All I want is to have a normal delivery that will heal me as soon as possible. But there are some points she spointed out in the whole conversation. That if theres no progress in my delivery, I have to choose between vacuum, forceps, cesaerian or emergency cesaerian which will put me to sleep while delivering my little one. I dont particularly like any of these last choices but I dont want forceps and vacuum. I dont wanna hurt my baby in doing this. I think I’d choose the cesaerian optiom if worst come to worst. I am indeed scared but i am more scared in harming little Jamie. God-willing, everything will be normal ang my baby will cooperate in D-day.

Gosh, it’s really near! And at the moment I have whooping 65 kilos. No wonder why it’s so difficult to walk around. Just from bedroom to toilet is a hardwork. Not to mention that I have to ask Habibi to push me out of the couch when I want to stand. whew!

How about the Dad to be? Oh well, it sunk in already that the time is near. So that day when the midwife visited us, he started building the baby cot. I was happy to see him working and focused on being a dad. I asked him to swap bed side as well as We plan to put the baby in our bed room in the first few months. But he insisted no. He wants to sleep near little Jamie and was planning to just put the baby with me if the baby wakes up for feeding times. That was so sweet ei?

Anyway, we can’t really wait to see our little one. who will he look like? hmmm let’s find out on the delivery day.

I have been away for nearly 10 days last month and was busy doing my Christmas Shopping and decorations. Thanks God I’m finished. Now left skint.. Uahhh! Christmas means SPENDING lotsa money.. Oh well, at least everyone’s looking forward to it. And it only happens once a year so no need for sour-graping really.

This week is much more hectic. As I was busy trying to achieve one of my last wish this Christmas. Hmmp! Not another baby of course… My little one still inside me hehehe.. But it’s something to do with my upcoming delivery. I wish Papa Jesus will grant my last request this Christmas. ( Please do Dear God…)

Week 27 here I Come! Or should I say welcome Third Trimester. With my bulging belly that is now bigger than last week, I’m beginning to need my Hubby’s help in pulling and pushing me out of the chair. I’m always out of balance when I stand as I am now heavy too. Not to mention, my little one don’t give me a chance to have a complete rest especially at night where he is more active on his moves. Much stronger and starting to feel pain every time he kicks or pedal on my belly.. Still enjoying it though but not when its 2 am and he’s trying to kick my bladder..

3 months from now, I will be cuddling my little Jamie. I wish he will be healthy. Can’t really wait!

BTW, a friend of mine just had her CS Delivery 2 weeks ago. As I heard from her, she was in agony and terrified on her experience.. uahhhh!! I’m scared! But I can do anything for my Little one.. I love him so much and I can bear anything..

Yup! My second ultra sound has finished last October 25th. But due to my laziness I didn’t have find time to update my blog. I was so excited to tell my friends via Facebook how my little one looks like at 5th month. Take a peek!

My little one at 5 months

Yes, that’s how he looks like at the moment. And yes we manage to find out my cute angel’s gender and it was a HE. Baby Boy!

Habibi was chuffed to know the gender during the ultra sound scan as the midwife showed the willy of my baby. All along I thought it was a baby girl but completely shocked when the midwife confirmed the Gender. Habibi’s grin was from ear to ear after the scan and a little more excited. He was excited to see the baby in flesh.. his soon to come football buddy!

Find out what’s next on my pregnancy as I reach the last phase of my Second Trimester. I feel lots of kicks more and more everyday. He responds often whenever I rub my belly and whenever he’s starving. But when I place Habibi’s hand, he just hid all the time. Like he was playing hide and seek with daddy.. really amazing!.. I Love my little one so much that I can’t stop thinking how will he look like..

As I reached the midpoint of my pregnancy, I felt butterfly movement on my tummy. It’s magic! I can’t believe how good it felt but it was really amazing. Now, every time I rub my my tummy I can feel he/she responds. So it was like a routine to me to rub it every night before I go to bed. I’m expecting stronger kicks or movements as months pass by to I can share that magical feeling to habibi..

Whoa, motherhood is indeed a magical thing. One of the best thing a woman can ever experience. It was hard but I’m sure all my friends out there who has told me that every hardship I felt on this pregnancy is worth it once I give birth. I can’t wait for that moment to happen.