At week 35 now and felt like I have bone cracks on my back. ITs really painful and uncomfortable to sit, sleep and walk. Everyday and night is a nightmare. But nothing I can do really. I need more patience and just focus on one thing, that this will end soon and We’ll be able to meet our little one soon.

I had my midwife visit last February 2, and it was a wake up call for both of us ( Jamie & me) that our baby will soon arrive in 2-3 weeks time. She explained us what to do in the upcoming delivery and asked us to support each other on my delivery day.

As we go on in our birth planning, anxiety hits me. I started getting nervous when she explained me about different types of giving birth. From normal to cesaerian. I stick to using epidural without knowing the disadvantages of it. All I want is to have a normal delivery that will heal me as soon as possible. But there are some points she spointed out in the whole conversation. That if theres no progress in my delivery, I have to choose between vacuum, forceps, cesaerian or emergency cesaerian which will put me to sleep while delivering my little one. I dont particularly like any of these last choices but I dont want forceps and vacuum. I dont wanna hurt my baby in doing this. I think I’d choose the cesaerian optiom if worst come to worst. I am indeed scared but i am more scared in harming little Jamie. God-willing, everything will be normal ang my baby will cooperate in D-day.

Gosh, it’s really near! And at the moment I have whooping 65 kilos. No wonder why it’s so difficult to walk around. Just from bedroom to toilet is a hardwork. Not to mention that I have to ask Habibi to push me out of the couch when I want to stand. whew!

How about the Dad to be? Oh well, it sunk in already that the time is near. So that day when the midwife visited us, he started building the baby cot. I was happy to see him working and focused on being a dad. I asked him to swap bed side as well as We plan to put the baby in our bed room in the first few months. But he insisted no. He wants to sleep near little Jamie and was planning to just put the baby with me if the baby wakes up for feeding times. That was so sweet ei?

Anyway, we can’t really wait to see our little one. who will he look like? hmmm let’s find out on the delivery day. :)